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Final year result and graduation

 Hi everyone. I'm coming to the end of my blogpost for my tesl and graduation journey. I hope that my crappy writing and all over the place information that I provided will be useful to you, if not, I apologize. I will try to keep this post as short as possible. 

I struggled during my degree years and my mental health deteriorated over the years. I'm diagnose with mild OCD which in result causes me to experience Anxiety and I am receiving help right now, so no worries. Progress is slow but hey, I'm living and that's all that matters right?

Keep in mind, I am no smarty pants. I'm stupid and a product of failure. If you read my blogs, please do not follow my footsteps ya. Be better than me. Live your life, seek for happiness. Set goals. Live. 

My final result is 3.67 (GPA), DL barely. 

I'm graduating with excellence, first class honours. No, I didn't get ANC because like I've said, I'm stupid. MUET Band 5 and that's all to it. 

There's a dispute whether to do an online graduation or do it physically this coming April but honestly, I don't care. I don't even want to attend it. If I can hide, I'd hide forever but my dad told me this is one of the important points in my life. Honestly, I don't even know what's important and what's not anymore. 

What's important is what you do after graduation. For those who are looking forward to apply as a teacher right away once you've graduated, I'm going to be crystal clear with you; the chances are very low. Be patient. Do other jobs first while you wait for your posting. As for me, I'm focusing on my mental health so I did not apply for anything. I did not apply for spp. I'm trying to recover from my lost, trying to be interested in living again, slowly doing the things I've once enjoy. I have a long way to go, but I have more or less 14 years left. 

Everyone, remember, if you can't run, walk. If you can't walk, crawl. If you can't crawl, drag yourself. You can take breaks, but NEVER stop. Come back stronger after each and every downfall. It's tough, trust me, I know it's tough. But I'm trying despite struggling to even try, so please, try again. 


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